I know why I failed miserably as an Army officer; I cannot handle living with ambiguity. I need the world to be black and white, not some opaque shade situated somewhere in between. Of course real life is muddied by misunderstood intentions, fear of rejection, pride or ego, jealousy, and a litany of other petty … Continue reading Ambiguity
You Reap What You Sow: My Thoughts on Mother’s Day
In words, thoughts, deeds, and actionsYou relentlessly programmed out emotionChief among those:Love and affectionYet now you resent the minimal love and affection I have for you Those times I cried when I had to say goodbyeTo him,My beloved idol,Your despised ex,You silenced my tearsWith both threats and punishment You were “really going to give me … Continue reading You Reap What You Sow: My Thoughts on Mother’s Day
Sir Duke
The power of music is simply amazing. Normally, when I am in the gym, my iPod is cranked up and I am oblivious to the rest of the world (unless, of course, there are any hot, muscular guys at the gym - then I am busy projecting a pretense of being oblivious while I sneak … Continue reading Sir Duke
The Lonely Commute…
Earlier in the day, a recent online acquaintance had relayed that he had just learned of the sudden death of a close friend. He was completely unprepared for the news. To make matters worse, he had received word a few days before that another friend had passed away. Our relationship is basically a 21st century … Continue reading The Lonely Commute…
str8 first timer
Oh I'll hit you up indeed; you had me at "use ur mouth!" Sign me up for a date with this romantic... "so tomorrow im free until 2 and hoping to find a nice regular guy to meet up with. cant host here but can travel so we can do car stuff or if u … Continue reading str8 first timer
Moving forward in the face of uncertainty
Some days my subconscious whispers of doubt change pitch into a screeching chorus making it impossible to deny their existence. What makes it that much worse is that these doubts do not take a solid form which I can reason my way through. No, these doubts are just an internal uncertainty about something "perhaps" gone … Continue reading Moving forward in the face of uncertainty
Gay Sex
[I am pretty frank in this blog. As the title suggests this entry will be about gay sex. If that isn't your cup of tea (to borrow a phrase from my dad) you may want to stop reading now.] I really enjoy taking it up the ass. While there are definitely some psychological aspects to … Continue reading Gay Sex
On the origins of my disappointment…
[Short Version] My ex-wife called and tried to drag me into some of her drama. The incident served to remind me of the bad things about our marriage, especially the day I discovered her infidelity when I read an email I was not meant to see. [Long Version] Generally speaking, this is definitely one of … Continue reading On the origins of my disappointment…
Love lost
While it is easy to do, Love should not be confused with the gifts of Eros, the god of sexual Love and beauty. Rather I contend that Love is the byproduct of Eris, the goddess of discord. For Love is a horrible thing. Love appears when you neither expect it nor want it. Even worse, … Continue reading Love lost
GAYDAR – Fail
A few months ago a friend of mine wound up with an extra ticket to the GLAD Spirit of Justice awards banquet and asked me to go with him. While we were in the prefunction area drinking cocktails, one of the guys who participates in my Abs class at the campus gym walked up to … Continue reading GAYDAR – Fail
A little bit of Mischief... 